All songs written by Kevin Wong, (c) WovenKing Music 2010 (SOCAN) except “And So It Goes”, written by Billy Joel, (c) JoelSongs 1990 (ASCAP).
Internal Diatribe (Introduction)
Legion of the Broken
Out of Reach
Queen of Games
Denial
Mr. Secrets
Five Night Stand (Interlude)
Away from Us
Falling Balloons
I Don’t Care (Interlude)
Woe
Who We Are
Recovery (Interlude)
The Solution
Colours
And So It Goes
Shine (Conclusion)
INTERNAL DIATRIBE (Introduction)
And lone am I with no end to your disguises
A hundred words spill out and all of them surprises
Even to me, I don’t know quite where my mind is
So try to pierce this haze and maybe you will find this
You make believe you can pack up all your troubles
Blow them away and flake and float them off like bubbles
I take the chances that I get to make me hopeful
And down I go, I dig me deeper like a shovel
And though you slept through life
YOu still got where you were going in time
I spin around again
Were you ever worth the wait?
were you ever worth the pain?
When you brought me back around to start again
behind your engine of sin
And keen were we, with no end to our dysfunction
Your wilful blindness and my sexual interruptions
I wish that I could take me back and shake me up some
for giving everything I had up to a fucked one
And if I slept through life
would I still get where I was going in time?
I spin around again
Were you ever worth the wait?
were you ever worth the pain?
When you brought me back around with nothing left
A broken engine of sin
Baby’s gonna leave again in another minute
Another broken game of chance, though I never plan it
It’s like he’s saying that’s the point, to disa-disappoint me
If that’s the point he’s made it well, as far as I see
So I wear a face of endless laughing
yeah laugh but never cry
though inside I think I’m breaking faster
break as I realize
Same ol’ story, boy loves boy but trifles with a third as well
You know this tale, yeah, love’s no glory when you treat it like a prison cell
So I joint the Legion of the Broken
the bitter disillusioned men
And I swear I’ll try to stop the hoping
And live in present tense
Baby thinks he’s got me fooled by his sweet deceptions
Yet protests when I make him use precautionary protection
It’s like he’s saying that’s the rub, our love’s a dirty bathtub
He scrubs another then succumbs, and I learn my lesson
And the mask of endless laughter’s crumpling
It crumples faster now
And I feel like I somehow deserve things
because I won’t walk out
Same ol’ story, boy loves boy but trifles with a third as well
You know this tale, yeah, love’s no glory when you treat it like an acid well
So I joint the Legion of the Broken
the bitter disillusioned men
And I swear I’ll try to stop the hoping
And live in present tense
Yeah Same ol’ story, boy loves boy but bid the other boy farewell
You know this tale, yeah, love’s no glory when you treat it like a prison cell
So I joint the Legion of the Broken
the bitter disillusioned men
And I swear I’ll try to stop the hoping
yeah that’s my one defense
Nikki goes over the moon
I take a breath and follow suit
I race along behind him praying
If only he’d reciprocate
Maybe I’ve taken the wrong approach
but oh it’s too late now to tell me so
And he’s out of my reach
And I slip and fall deep
And I don’t know how to leave behind
everything I thought I was meant to find
All out of my reach
help me breathe
and Dany was a deep blue sky
who left me crying, wondering why
I held to him for far too long
Until my time to go had gone
And though I know he loves me for what I am
I’ve always felt like Moses at the Promised Land
And he’s out of my reach
And I slip and fall deep
And I don’t know how to leave behind
everything I thought I was meant to find
All out of reach
help me breathe
And he’s out of my reach
And I slip and fall deep
And I don’t know how to leave behind
everything I thought was destined to be mine
All out of reach
help me breathe
Maybe I’m still too young to keep a thing from going wrong
Yet somehow I”m old enough for it all to be my fault
And why should I ever change when all you do is stay the same?
We’re coming, going, tears and pain, faking just to save some face
Everybody talks and drowns our song
But even when they stop the words feel wrong
And so it goes once more
And will you smile and laugh and move along like you did before
And will it be the same?
And will he be the one or just another midnight flame?
O Queen of Games
She drinks and her anger wins
her words scrape across my skin
But what could I say when I’m
still trying to remember why
We still go in crowds with me in tow
But even when she’s there I’m still alone
And so it goes once more
And will you smile and laugh and move along like you did before
And will it be the same?
And will he be the one or just another weekend play?
O Queen of Games
Everybody talks and drowns our song
But even when they stop the words feel wrong
And so it goes once more
And will you smile and laugh and move along like you did before
And will it be the same?
And will he be the one or just another one to blame?
O Queen of Games
O Queen of Games
It seems like each day I meet another new person who has nothing of importance to say
He prattles on and on about the painfully obvious while I wonder if I’ll ever get laid
It seems like I’m surrounded by a hundred people wearing business suits but playing games
And all they seem to do is chatter about things that don’t matter yet they don’t even know how to face
Themselves
Oh do you know yourself?
Who you really are?
Do you know yourself?
We’re all swimmin’ in Egyptian river
If you think too long you start to shiver
But reality is soon delivered
And the house of lies all falls down
You’re thinking that you’re so damn clever
Social reject dwelling on the weather
I wish that I could pull the lever
To make your house of lies all fall down
He reminds me of a penguin when he waddles in, half drunk and high and desperate to unzip his skin
And he’s talking at a thousand words, a second wind, and I start to crumble ’cause he’s just like me within
And I seem to be surrounded by a hundred hearts still going loud and strong but missing fundamental parts
And all the money and the porn can occupy our time, and yet it’s apathy that ends up as the party line
And still
Do we know ourselves,
what we’re capable of?
Do we know ourselves?
We’re all swimmin’ in Egyptian river
If you think too long you start to shiver
But reality is soon delivered
And the house of lies all falls down
You’re thinking that you’re so damn clever
Social reject dwelling on the weather
I wish that I could pull the lever
To make your house of lies all fall down
And yet, oh
Do I know myself?
Who I really am
oh do I know myself?
We’re all swimmin’ in Egyptian river
If you think too long you start to shiver
But reality is soon delivered
And the house of lies all falls down
You’re thinking that you’re so damn clever
Social reject dwelling on the weather
Bu someone always pulls the lever
To make your house of lies all fall down
Mr. Secrets walks and he sets out his bait now
A tight black shirt and all the boys and girls just drown
So handsome, oh desirable, and how they fall out
They line up in a row so he can knock them down
And tell me has he ever wondered what it’s like
to not pretend he’s someone else for just one time?
For when the game is over all he’ll have is pride
He wears the safety of an easy lie
The truth comes out the more you try to hide
He never gives a thing that’s real unless he’s sure that
it can’t come back to get him, knock illusions flat
It must be so exhausting, always overthinking
But Mr. Secrets keeps right on, with me complicit
And tell me do you ever wonder what it’s like
to not pretend you’re someone else for just a time?
For when the game is over all you’ll have is pride
You wear the safety of an easy lie
The truth comes out the more you try to hide
Mr. Secrets, do you know what they won’t tell you?
They all suspect, they all discuss your vaunted truth
But I won’t say, I’ll let you think you’ve got them schooled
But when we’re gone you’re left with no one but the fools
And tell me do you ever wonder what it’s like
to not pretend you’re someone else for just a time?
For when the game is over all you’ll have is pride
You wear the safety of an easy lie
The truth comes out the more you try to hide
So don’t hide
I am your 5 night stand and I am your best friend
We can’t help ourselves we’re attracted
but when we’re done you’re always distracted
by some other guy who’s probably even better than your 5 night stand
I am your substitute for all your failed pursuits
And though I might not seem to resent you
don’t you worry, I often do
It’s just another morning, noon, and evening, yearning as your 5 night stand
Do you recall that morning when we met
You struck me like a storm and I was swept
And I can still see clearly in my mind
The sparkle in your eyes as they held mine
And now the colours fade to grey
There’s no love left in the things you say
It’s like we’re in a silent film
waiting for someone to change the reel
We’ve never needed more than all we are
But now it’s only tearing us apart
And everything, it fades now into dust
And all the signs, they point away from us
We move away from us
And every picture taken out of frame
We only move around to shift the blame
I can’t even remember what it’s like
To feel like I’m not falling fast behind
And boy you know it fades to grey
And I feel you slipping fast away
It’s like we’re trapped in worlds between
Where we can’t say the things we really mean
We’ve never needed more than all we are
But now it’s only tearing us apart
And everything, it fades now into dust
And all the signs, they point away from us
Could chase you forever and wander together
and even then still know I’ve lost
My beautiful lover keeps both eyes on others
and never thinks about the cost
And still the earth goes round
but I can’t seem to move
and then we hit the ground
but we hit it too soon
We went soaring up in the light
without a care, two colours in flight
But when the air went out of you
what else was left for me to do
but sink back down through the night
Falling Balloons
You’re stopping and starting, you’re always departing
returning only at your whim
No joy and no laughter, just one big disaster
and without you I drown within
And don’t you tell me I’ve got to rise up again
each time I reach the clouds, well it’s thunder and rain
We went soaring up in the light
without a care, two colours in flight
But when the air went out of you
what else was left for me to do
but sink back down through the night
Falling Balloons
And still the earth goes ’round
but I can’t seem to move
and then we hit the ground
and it’s always too soon
Falling balloons
we go down too soon
We went soaring up in the light
without a care, two colours in flight
But when the air went out of you
what else was left for me to do
but sink back down through the night
Falling Balloons
So you don’t really really want me
That’s cool, I could see that easy
Gotta run now I’m late fo’ deezy
…that’s not a thing
What I mean is I’m glad it’s over
Just means that I won’t bend over
Half as much as I did when I was with you
Otherwise it’s cool
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
Stop tryin’ to check, I’m just fine
Don’t second guess, drink turpentine (oops, ignore that!)
What I’m trying to say is it’s not fair
You’re such a fool, but I don’t care
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
I don’t care!
He walks, I talk
but I don’t know how to redeem
Those things I’ve said and all the things
i’ve done he’s seen
He knows I wish
things could be back the way they were
His sacrifice
always my gain, I never return
And i’m just flying high, drinking a beer
The sun will shine as bright when he’s not here
and I’ll never let anything get into my head or bother me
Maybe he’ll go, that much I know, but I won’t show
my tears of woe
He screams, I shout
Neither can hear, and he walks out
My mind gives chase,
but my feet don’t move, they hold me in place
So i’m just flying high, drinking a beer
The sun will shine as bright when he’s not here
and I’ll never let anything get into my head or bother me
Maybe he’ll go, that much I know, but I won’t show
my tears of woe
Pillars of salt and divorce by default and our city is burning, I’m crushed under walls
of my own design, it’s so asinine, but of course, I play like I’m fine
’cause I’m just flying high, drinking a beer
The sun will shine as bright when he’s not here
and I’ll never let anything get into my head or bother me
Maybe he’ll go, that much I know, but I won’t show
my tears of woe
I know you’ve heard this before
but I will say it once more
How we never seem to change
and the problems are the same
The hurt just cycles again
Now I am starting to break
away from all those mistakes
and though I’m prone to fall again
I can now tell what’s pretend
from what is real in your wake
It’s just who you are
In falling apart, I somehow lose myself
When nothing is left, to let go instead
Of blindly clinging
to nothing but air
When nobody’s there
I find it hard to believe, when you say
it’s not reflective on me
When you take somebody else
Who is lesser than myself
I think I know what I see
It’s just who I am
oh I understand
I always fall short of you
You ask why compare
well something’s not here
When I am always behind
the next one in line
Old dreams recur and taunt me
I tried and failed in needing
everything you never gave as you swore it wasn’t you
It’s just who we are
I know we tried hard
ANd it was all we had
And somehow I hope
In letting you go
And though I might be alone
I might be my own
Finally my own
[No lyrics]
Lover asks me ‘what do we do?’
Well, what have we got to lose?
we already got each other, so why do we even bother
playing it loose
playing aloof
Why search for sparks in a game
when we explode like a flame
So follow me now intently
taking a nosedive gently
Into the rain
take the fast lane
And tell me lover
that we’re forever
Make it so sweet
taking me high like a melody
Bringing me down so gently
Yeah make me crazy
Take me on emotional highs
never let me say no goodbyes
no need for pain or sorrow
as long as we’ve got tomorrow
it’s such a prize
a lovely surprise
And tell me lover
that we’re forever
Make it so sweet
taking me high like a melody
Bringing me down so gently
Yeah make me crazy
Maybe if we lived in a different time
well, it might be a little easier
but that doesn’t make it wrong tonight
So show me that smile that gets me every time
and get ready
brace heavy
for another rollercoaster ride
And tell me lover
that we’re forever
Make it so sweet
taking me high like a melody
Bringing me down so gently
Yeah make me crazy
I don’t know what you do to me
I don’t know how you make me see a new green
but it’s in everything
And I’m not sure exactly how you do
but somehow you got me seeing brand new hues
a brighter shade of blue
And I don’t know exactly why the sun does shine
a little brighter when I open up my eyes
and you are with me, boy you open up my mind
and baby all that I can say
The colours seem to change
Don’t get me started on those times you got me red
when you get into my head
And yellow, orange, purple, psychedelic days
Babe you always put the pink into the grey
you make a better place
And I don’t know exactly why the sun does shine
a little brighter when I open up my eyes
and you are with me, boy you open up my mind
and baby all that I can say
The colours seem to change
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I’ve held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It’s just as well for all I’ve seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
As if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows
You’re brave, bold, and strong
yet a child lies within
You fear how despair can so easily begin
Let me through
let me cross the divine
I chose you
I am here on your side
Through all of the sadness we’ll face in this life
and all of the darkness you battle inside
I will shine
I will shine
When walls rise around and leave you no choice
and entropy takes you and swallows your voice
Take my hand
let my pulse beat you home
Understand
you are never alone
Through all of the sadness we’ll face in this life
and all of the darkness you battle inside
I will shine
I will shine
I know you’ve come so far, and fought so long,
and raced across the plain
And shadows chase your heels, and mask the dawn
and drag you back again
I would stand in the expanse
I could take you through the night
if you’d only take a chance
and look into my eyes
Through all of the sadness we’ll face in this life
and all of the darkness you battle inside
I will shine
I will shine
Just let me shine
Just let there be light
